What hurtz the Most.. blah blah

Ahoy to all x)

been a while ever since I posted on my blog, sorry lol been really busy and now there's a lot of drama going on that its really crazy.. *sighs*
because of all the problems I had I decided to take a break from msn and close myself on my house and get inspiration to draw while sorting myself out.. I said things before I went without bad intentions and yet when I finally get back I find myself worse than before but what hurts is how a friendship of years its lost and less than 2 weeks.. never thought it could happen but in the end I guess is all for the better, her parents think I'm a bad influence like always, and honnestly I'm a complete reck, the old me is pretty much lost.. lol the one she met on high school is dead and burried 6 feet under now.. no turning back no wonder her parents (and apparently her little sister too) hate me but worse is what they think of me.. I'm not like that and yet *sighs* its sad and I tell ya just when we think the problems are quiet and in the shadows all gets worse and instead of getting better we all go back to the way we were or even worse.. gah I'm so lost right now, this thing happened yesterday and caught me be surprise I'm still trying to accept it and its weird.. good thing my Bf called me yesterday night and we talked for a bit at least it cheered me up for that time being and after the call, he's my reason S2 hehe x3 he's crazy like me and my sweet devil and I dont want to lose him, not now, not ever <3 most of the times he seems to be the only one who fully understands me.. I'll never make the same mistakes again of trusting myself to friends and revealling my trueself, if its to end this way... like this.. than its not needed, I can only trust myself most of the times, I should of learned that way before but I guess I'm stupid XD oh well life's a bitch and we all know it lol

appart from that last week I spent 3 days and 2 nights at a friend's house and it was cool I liked it haha and in that time I also bought 7 books thanks to sales and promotions woohoo yay for me I'm reading Bad Moon Rising from the Dark Hunter series x3 in english because the translated version will probably only come out in about 2 years O.o yikes I can't wait that long XD it's an offly long time of wait and well I'm a big fan of the series so yeah you get the point I also bought 3 books from Juliet Marillier series can't wait to read them, I loved the SevenWaters triology and the last 2 books she wrote, really amazing *-*

and here I let this cool video, I love the lyrics of this song x) from Devil May Cry 4 I've played a little bit on my friend's house hahaha first time playing was fun actually even though my friend's sadistic will for me to play is scarier than the monsters I swear she would do a great role on a horror movie XDD would be quite of a success with her voice and jokes XD everybody would die quickly and with style hahahaha gosh I'm mean :')