CraZy and RanDom fresh NEWS! :D

howdy peeps :)
been a while ever since my last post oh well havent been in a mood to post over here and all that [personal problems]
anyway I have crazy random news to tell you all :D yay *dances*
first thing I got a note on deviantart from a swiss photographer thath complemented me and enjoys my work :) so I was so happy to know that someone appreciates my artwork of photography :')
second thing I went to a manga store with the purpose of buying some markers for my manga drawings I ended up buying only one because well the markers are sooooo expensive and well there wasnt black at all, at least not the one I wanted so I ended up bringing the fucsia (hot pink) LOL dunno if the name is writen that way but well haha (x I'll try to buy more in the future ><
but then again I also saw DENGEKI DAISY manga :DD I really love that manga so I had to buy the first volume weeee x3 I'm so happy :') I want to collect this manga series yay x3 that and Dance in the vampire bund that I also saw for sale on that store *jumps with joy*
and I also bought two books of a triology that I read recently and totally loved it, its by Juliet Marillier, the SevenWaters (I've already mentioned on a post down bellow so go check it out ;P)
and third but not least there's a competition of photography going on youtube and I'm so thinking of sending an audition video for it problem is I need to sort out my video camera >> and well lets face it webcams for this kinda of contest are not only lame but impossible XD so yeah sucky
the competition is called "Internet's most talented photographer" the auditions are open and close on 8th of jully so I have to hurry and I need to put 3 photos that I've taken this year on my auditions video :'( I had some good photos of last year and I cant use them at all pity *sighs* anyway its a cool opportunity and might aswell try it out we never know what's going to happen after all ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PnuGwPZIHwg&feature=feedlik

so here it is check it out :D and see the auditions videos there's probably a lot of talented people out there ^^
the prizes are really neat but the one that caught my eye was the Canon EOS 60D camera, I've been dying to buy a new camera so yeah haha XD

and here is a video of this cool band called Heyhihello :) the accoustic version of this song, I'm also hooked on it XD lol I like his voice haha its smooth and catchy what else can I say ʘ‿ʘ [innocent face] lol
PS: huge post I did in here damn I need to post more and dont let so much to tell on only one after weeks of absense XD I'm hopeless ಠ_ಠ

Get a Ride on the Roller Coaster Day LoL

hello to all..

today my inner child was partying hard and almighty when I woke up (: but through the day I guess I had many changes on my mood lol from kinda happy, normal, to disappointed, frustrated, pissed off and then desperate, sad, depressive, pretty much a reck is what I look like right now... I know, I know yeah sounds like I'm bipolar XD lol well maybe I really am who knows, its what I say to people anyways --''

what can I say this past few months haven't been easy and lately seems like I only receive bad news no matter what...

people always say "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade" well I try my best to do that and it always fails because there's always problems popping out of nowhere *sighs*

Love is quite the word alright and even more powerful is the feeling itself, its such a pitty that most people dont even aknowledge that :(

most dont even understand or help others in need, when we need true friends the most the ones we think of end up letting us down...

*sighs* all I know is that now time is quite limited for what I have to do and I dont even have ways or help to get through it.. I feel like I'm at the edge of a Cliff, one step from falling down from there and hit the bottom... yeah I'm down because every single oportunity I have is lost even before I grab it, and when I do it never comes true no matter how hard I try its against all odds I'm even starting to think I'm cursed to be here while the fate of the one I love is not certain and he's miles away from here alone without me and facing life and death situation... of a damn operation and I'm here not able to contact or support him, be there for him, for him to know how I love him and how brave he really is for how is dealing with all that's been happening :'(

I have more than enough reasons to be sad or crying, and even more reasons to stand up and continue fighting like always.. but my problem is the fact that time is against me and I really dont know what do expect of all this.. and how to cope with this weight on my shoulders and all alone against the world :\

anyway this is how I feel today its depressive and meh I know sorry wish I could be cheered up and all happy like I tend to be, yet as the time passes by I found it more difficult to do so.. how can we smile if we see less reasons to do so? I feel like mines are lost for so long now, I cant find any at all

this is how I feel I guess lol I really like this song and the vid is just amazing, I have this one on my faves on youtube hehe

PS: sorry for this long long post lol even though I only typped a tiny bit of what I've been feeling and going through I guess its still something, maybe the weight on my chest and on top of my shoulders will get less heavy.. who knows ;p