hello to all..
today my inner child was partying hard and almighty when I woke up (: but through the day I guess I had many changes on my mood lol from kinda happy, normal, to disappointed, frustrated, pissed off and then desperate, sad, depressive, pretty much a reck is what I look like right now... I know, I know yeah sounds like I'm bipolar XD lol well maybe I really am who knows, its what I say to people anyways --''
what can I say this past few months haven't been easy and lately seems like I only receive bad news no matter what...
people always say "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade" well I try my best to do that and it always fails because there's always problems popping out of nowhere *sighs*
Love is quite the word alright and even more powerful is the feeling itself, its such a pitty that most people dont even aknowledge that :(
most dont even understand or help others in need, when we need true friends the most the ones we think of end up letting us down...
*sighs* all I know is that now time is quite limited for what I have to do and I dont even have ways or help to get through it.. I feel like I'm at the edge of a Cliff, one step from falling down from there and hit the bottom... yeah I'm down because every single oportunity I have is lost even before I grab it, and when I do it never comes true no matter how hard I try its against all odds I'm even starting to think I'm cursed to be here while the fate of the one I love is not certain and he's miles away from here alone without me and facing life and death situation... of a damn operation and I'm here not able to contact or support him, be there for him, for him to know how I love him and how brave he really is for how is dealing with all that's been happening :'(
I have more than enough reasons to be sad or crying, and even more reasons to stand up and continue fighting like always.. but my problem is the fact that time is against me and I really dont know what do expect of all this.. and how to cope with this weight on my shoulders and all alone against the world :\
anyway this is how I feel today its depressive and meh I know sorry wish I could be cheered up and all happy like I tend to be, yet as the time passes by I found it more difficult to do so.. how can we smile if we see less reasons to do so? I feel like mines are lost for so long now, I cant find any at all
this is how I feel I guess lol I really like this song and the vid is just amazing, I have this one on my faves on youtube hehe
PS: sorry for this long long post lol even though I only typped a tiny bit of what I've been feeling and going through I guess its still something, maybe the weight on my chest and on top of my shoulders will get less heavy.. who knows ;p
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